Inadequate!?!

Ever feel like a square peg trying to be crammed into a round hole? I do often!  I frequently question God on His choice of me. There are others more qualified, more charismatic, better preachers, etc.


And in His infinite patience, He says, "But I chose you and I have my reasons."


God has such a perspective that I may never understand.  All I do is submit and say, "Yes Lord, I will follow you to the ends of the earth", or in my case, Colombia.


Am I unique?  Sure.  I have been a carpenter, a designer, an architectural engineer, an electrical engineer, a civil engineer, a manager, a minister, and a missionary. So, what's next?  Am I done with titles?

What or who am I, Lord? "My son and that is all I ask of you."

A friend showed me this thought and I think it is a perfect way of expressing the way I often feel.


“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.” - Thomas Merton from Thoughts in Solitude


Overqualified to do a task, underqualified to do the work, and grateful to be chosen!